a suicidal instinct can manifest in one’s choice of partner we push each other out of line and hope to make chalk lines out of these piles of snow when he says: let’s drink and drivei spring for the 12% abvwhen the road twists aheadmy laugh echoes off the shale wallsi know which songs toContinue reading “cassavetes pt ii”
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life lessons
yes take your little hobbiespractice well and be wellrounded and keep your curvesyour figure little piggyyour body is your greatest giftthe man the man that god hath plannedshall receive with joy yes do your little workplace invisible trophiesinto tiny cases in casesomeday i’ll glance your wayand find some pride to sparebut know it’s unimportantthere areContinue reading “life lessons”
compared to all the local celebrities
this box of brainsfeels so much lessthan special at timeswishing that my favoriteartists weren’t so uncoolor that i cared about houseplantsand had an eye for decoratingor a gender identityor that i played tennis really wellthat languages would stickand i could cite theorywhile i give you a glimpseof the horsehead nebulathrough my elaborate telescopebefore utterly blowingContinue reading “compared to all the local celebrities”
toxic waste bucket brigade
call it a rewatch of a shitty movie that had a predictable ending the first time an endless regifting of love me to you to her to him a sweet package with a bow never meant for its final recipient and of course he won’t want it it’s monogrammed with your initials call it aContinue reading “toxic waste bucket brigade”
t-minus
i’m glad we get another autumnto pick a day to pick applesbut instead just buy themand walk by the riverand take elaborate posed photosnext to some pumpkinsand laugh we get another summerto watch the dog swimand eat ice cream sandwichesand seek respite from heatin the grocery storeduring peak tejano hoursi’m gonna wear colorful dresseswe’re gonnaContinue reading “t-minus”
lachrymosal enthusiast
conventional wisdom saysno matter how much you crytears won’t wash awaythe sweetness of a good kissi’m an emotional connoiseurand crying beats kissingmost days of the weekstill: there were thingsi loved that haunt me last night a dark formclimbed into my dreamsand held me in place while i screamed for helpi woke up shaken andwondering ifContinue reading “lachrymosal enthusiast”
reverse dutch boy
the river of my desireonce seemed to flood & drownevery good thing i hadso i built a strong dam& let myself take small sipsfrom the lake that grewyear by year he took a sledgehammer& relentlessly swung &hacked giant holesthrough concrete & rebarstood firm in the rushlaughing as it soaked himhe said, there. you’re free.& thenContinue reading “reverse dutch boy”
reasons for leaving your senses
the hot wind of frustrationmeets the cold front of isolationa hurricane builds on the horizonit calls itself by your secret name evacuation plans torn by windfrom their sweaty handsthe small people on the shoregrip beach sand with their toes whatever it is that keeps themholding to a home that is already lostbravery or idiocy orContinue reading “reasons for leaving your senses”
lock your own door
another genius dead by suicideto add to my lists of influencesand reasons i love youi fell asleep quickly and aloneand woke before my alarmanxious nausea sandwichedbetween long silent days you said you feel the most like yourselfwhen you are alone and i saidhoney that’s everyone that’s all of uswhen i am alone i am soContinue reading “lock your own door”
any port in a storm (as long as it’s ruby)
neither of us(none of us)likes those poems that are plainspoken and don’tuse a line break to sayanything andusually iwouldn’t write one butdesperate timesand all that i cannotunderstand why i miss youthis much and youseem to be more than finewith me being nothingmore than a seasoningsprinkled over the daywhen you claimedthat you loved mebecause i amContinue reading “any port in a storm (as long as it’s ruby)”
mattress dungeon 