Tag Archives: mental illness

the secret languages have no textbook

for Mike Doughty have you learned by nowthat the twists and grooves of a certain mindshapeslip gently into abstract curlsof language, of melodyof voice when they elaborate at lengthyou saved my life in 2007so graceless, your graceyou must know the liquid tangles of wiringpore over your metaphorto find an opening the shock of recognitiontines connectingtoContinue reading “the secret languages have no textbook”

this one weird trick

you can stay up late playing video gamesyou can quit your diet and eat white breadnobody cares that you didn’t showeryou never have to take your clothes off there’s a secret languagewhich can shorten life expectancyyou’ll feel better having learned itso much taller and braverwith those words in your head he said why do youContinue reading “this one weird trick”

wildheart

in the beginningshe sent everyone out of the roomand asked me: do you believein demons?i’ll answer your question, i saidbut first we have to definewhat a demon is i asked her: whydid you steal the patient listfrom the nurses’ stationshe said, they had mugshots of uswhy can’t they just remember our names do you needContinue reading “wildheart”

cassavetes pt ii

a suicidal instinct can manifest in one’s choice of partner we push each other out of line and hope to make chalk lines out of these piles of snow when he says: let’s drink and drivei spring for the 12% abvwhen the road twists aheadmy laugh echoes off the shale wallsi know which songs toContinue reading “cassavetes pt ii”

compared to all the local celebrities

this box of brainsfeels so much lessthan special at timeswishing that my favoriteartists weren’t so uncoolor that i cared about houseplantsand had an eye for decoratingor a gender identityor that i played tennis really wellthat languages would stickand i could cite theorywhile i give you a glimpseof the horsehead nebulathrough my elaborate telescopebefore utterly blowingContinue reading “compared to all the local celebrities”

lock your own door, pt. ii

should i switch to tequilain spite of our rotten limesfeet in lead bootsroll me into the riverwatch me sinkin defiance of your expectationsoh you thought i’d fightyou thought i’d swimyou did did yousorry to disappointbut what’s else is new my patience is as shortas your memoryor your attention spanor the straw i drewdown on youContinue reading “lock your own door, pt. ii”

resume update

it’s nice to be a personon this cool morning green and goldwe have to take our daysof conflict resolutionand high executive functionand good hairand hold them closeto remind us of what we’re capable you hired me becausei anticipate the needs of the clientand apply proactive, creativeproblem-solving techniquesi specialize in seamlessmanagement of transitionand crisis prevention youContinue reading “resume update”

i could honestly really use an energy drink right about now

to thee, my dear friendi do indeed dedicate this delicious doughnutit’s a good ‘unthey overfilled itjust packed the damn thing so fulla buttercreamsoft fresh sweetw/chocolate icing the poet shall smashthe hell out of this treathungover, low blood sugarclearly quitting drinkingdidn’t stick that welllo i am attemptingto stave off this attack y’all ever get this wayanContinue reading “i could honestly really use an energy drink right about now”

let’s make out and listen to car seat headrest

we can’t have a rational conversation about all the fun ways my hurt manifests of course it’s easier when i’m leaning hedonist & i’m so enjoyable when i’m drunk but here i am waking up with a heart full of hate gagging on nightmares & i just can’t find the exit the less i loveContinue reading “let’s make out and listen to car seat headrest”