someday someone’s gonna love you this much & you’ll find a reason to say no anyway you think someday you’ll be ready but it’s 23 all over again when you’re scared you’re screaming no no no no no it’s not a habit but love love is a mirror and we hate the sight of ourselvesContinue reading “i am ian’s busted heart”
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multiverse
once i was a tree & you were a birdwho lived in me. they cut me downto build a fire & you were the flame.once we were two flowers grownfrom the same seed. you were a fox;i was the water you drank. you moved next toand through & in meand I breathed youand you spokeContinue reading “multiverse”
one voice that whispers to itself
you know i think i knowsomething about that deep-downthing of which you’ve never spokenin daylight under cigarette haze if this makes you uncomfortablethen i won’t say it out loudafter this many bad shapesi’m questioning my fitsettling and ambitionlet’s take itand fake what we can getit’s all the same, no? so then why the despairgod isContinue reading “one voice that whispers to itself”
you’re a ben kweller blizzard
it’s been lonelier than usual at worki keep calling long distancelike it’ll make a differencethis time hi hello again am ibothering youyour tone changedsomewhere recently maybe you’re the wrong bankfor this deposit this is all so counterproductivelike a nailbiting habitborn from hygiene anxiety backskip & blot lipstickmaybe this part won’talways feel so fraught hi helloContinue reading “you’re a ben kweller blizzard”
loosey-goosey
i meant to tell you a story onceit may be stale nowbut it’s three peoplein a smoky apartmentrunning lines, changing wordsembellishing & polishingthe confidence in camaraderieday after day i felt stronger &more alive & ready to stretch. goddamn it was beautiful. uskids cooking a meal together you did thisit’s our story nowall of itand iContinue reading “loosey-goosey”
that’s what makes them gods
we’ll never make it all fit againedges sharper & the space deflates;you’ve got a way to measurehow thick blood runs this time. sayin babe what flavor is the shame?you wanna be adored?i could worship you forever,right up until you fuck it up. the best thing about gods isthey don’t care when you lose faith —watchContinue reading “that’s what makes them gods”
this is a long drive for someone with nothing to scream about
here’s a long one for you two motherfuckers off in distant lands see there’s this guy i used to worship fell in art with him the way i fell for you, & you but harder, somehow these things never go the way you want them to you watch them get lazy you watch them getContinue reading “this is a long drive for someone with nothing to scream about”
filament
there is a kind of nameless bliss descending in these quiet moments so what if it comes with pain we’ve never been strangers to each other it’s proof in its own way that the universe doesn’t owe me sense or coincidence and it’s even lovelier watching things fade this is a sunset on a shoppingContinue reading “filament”
mattress dungeon 