Tag Archives: loneliness

and we are all dehydrated

i could so effectively eraseevery aspect of my presencenon-tactile and undrinkablewithout giving notice always a warm bed waitingarms to grasp &lungs to gasphair tangled from correspondence made flesh angel singingi am the only one nowi am the only one nowi am the only one now i am the only one now none of this makesContinue reading “and we are all dehydrated”

i am ian’s busted heart

someday someone’s gonna love you this much & you’ll find a reason to say no anyway you think someday you’ll be ready but it’s 23 all over again when you’re scared you’re screaming no no no no no it’s not a habit but love love is a mirror and we hate the sight of ourselvesContinue reading “i am ian’s busted heart”

i mailed my old copy of infinite jest to italy because i couldn’t stand to look at it anymore

if you love something,never get paid for it. i’m a postage amateurfinally best to my bestswelling this blue boxand this oneheavy as my lungs he’s been out a long timeunseen as ever& spotted in an unclear skyshaking leaf to rootviolent splendor/violent love i can’t change my bonesor dodge this perfumefresh money, babysmells good enough toContinue reading “i mailed my old copy of infinite jest to italy because i couldn’t stand to look at it anymore”

i’d leave if the rotation was just a little longer

yeah okif yall are gonna beon yr phones theni dont feel so badabout my drunk scribblesfuck it all my boys unhappy& my reluctant crush hasv o m i t b r e a t hits 1117 & im drunk &i wanna be trashed& im so tired of thisDISappearing actjesus why is everything chaosim ready toContinue reading “i’d leave if the rotation was just a little longer”

you’re a ben kweller blizzard

it’s been lonelier than usual at worki keep calling long distancelike it’ll make a differencethis time hi hello again am ibothering youyour tone changedsomewhere recently maybe you’re the wrong bankfor this deposit this is all so counterproductivelike a nailbiting habitborn from hygiene anxiety backskip & blot lipstickmaybe this part won’talways feel so fraught hi helloContinue reading “you’re a ben kweller blizzard”

bite me you fucking lush

two left out on the edge of nothingand here i was trying to be goodif it ain’t wrong then it don’t feel rightand i’ve cut it off before. yeah i broke it off before.i need designer vacations and drugs with a kickyou can’t kiss me on these filthy sheetsi want to get away. i wantContinue reading “bite me you fucking lush”

this is a long drive for someone with nothing to scream about

here’s a long one for you two motherfuckers off in distant lands see there’s this guy i used to worship fell in art with him the way i fell for you, & you but harder, somehow these things never go the way you want them to you watch them get lazy you watch them getContinue reading “this is a long drive for someone with nothing to scream about”

filament

there is a kind of nameless bliss descending in these quiet moments so what if it comes with pain we’ve never been strangers to each other it’s proof in its own way that the universe doesn’t owe me sense or coincidence and it’s even lovelier watching things fade this is a sunset on a shoppingContinue reading “filament”