suppose there’s a point of pointlessnesswhere complaining just puts you inone of those obligating positionsand low-maintenance seems bestbut lo it is lonely waiting againbitches i’m back to havingnothing but some bit partof someone else’s lowlife hearts want what hearts wantwhat hearts want what heartswant what hearts want whatheart wants the consolation kisswhich creates no differencebetweenContinue reading “cassavetes says he isn’t taking my calls anymore”
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venomous progression
the snake coiled in my guthas the typical markingsof a Midwestern Heartbreakerfilthy isolation & yearningno appetite & poor sleepthe mind running over & overwords spoken & unspokenthe extra muscle it takesto pick up a pen & writethe same trite bullshitas everyone else who’s had a bite take me to a bankwith a robbery in progressi’llContinue reading “venomous progression”
more than when you tried
oh darlin i aint never heardnothin as sad as youcryin out in drunken pain yer cards close; not a gamblerbut the mirror in yer voiceshows yer hand babe i get why yer hurtinya dont gotta say it out loud& i guess neither will i a piece of this messll always beyers, love o minedidnt workContinue reading “more than when you tried”
blank speech
well because see i have this thing with wanting i wasn’t allowed to want things when i was a kid the heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked who can know it hot damn sometimes the bible contains really great poetry i was always a psalms girl myself yeah that and ezekiel yearningContinue reading “blank speech”
sun’s out guns out
i love you like shitty weatheror a low-grade feveror a vaguely annoying coworkerit’s so nice having somethingto complain about
one voice that whispers to itself
you know i think i knowsomething about that deep-downthing of which you’ve never spokenin daylight under cigarette haze if this makes you uncomfortablethen i won’t say it out loudafter this many bad shapesi’m questioning my fitsettling and ambitionlet’s take itand fake what we can getit’s all the same, no? so then why the despairgod isContinue reading “one voice that whispers to itself”
you’re a ben kweller blizzard
it’s been lonelier than usual at worki keep calling long distancelike it’ll make a differencethis time hi hello again am ibothering youyour tone changedsomewhere recently maybe you’re the wrong bankfor this deposit this is all so counterproductivelike a nailbiting habitborn from hygiene anxiety backskip & blot lipstickmaybe this part won’talways feel so fraught hi helloContinue reading “you’re a ben kweller blizzard”
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i wrote some notesbeforei opened the floorfor questions& here we are nowi’ll remind youthat you asked. i’m burned out on sexy people& sexy partieshow does it feelbeing yousee i guess you’ve gatheredi’m intense —that’s why i like camping yeah no yeah howdo you get it all quiethow do you convince yourselfto breathe?like this:[ ] butContinue reading “[ ]”
i have to keep fighting muscle memory
it shouldn’t be this easy to humiliate myselfsurely you’ve noticedby nowi’m all shaky handswhen you say hello
bite me you fucking lush
two left out on the edge of nothingand here i was trying to be goodif it ain’t wrong then it don’t feel rightand i’ve cut it off before. yeah i broke it off before.i need designer vacations and drugs with a kickyou can’t kiss me on these filthy sheetsi want to get away. i wantContinue reading “bite me you fucking lush”
mattress dungeon 