she makes a point of telling me there are things i won’t tell you i can’t trust that you won’t melt down and betray me he drives me home and i tell him i am afraid of my own organs he nods and says yes my wife is like that, too your heart is anContinue reading “presentation/projection”
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it’s wasting time either way
enclose yourself in that stand of red pines so i can demonstrate just how high they climb from the sand of their birth i wear my mother’s old ringon my smallest fingera stone for each childcomes up five gems shorti wear my mother’s namebound around my lips waste time with melet’s find an escapefrom theseContinue reading “it’s wasting time either way”
toxic waste bucket brigade
call it a rewatch of a shitty movie that had a predictable ending the first time an endless regifting of love me to you to her to him a sweet package with a bow never meant for its final recipient and of course he won’t want it it’s monogrammed with your initials call it aContinue reading “toxic waste bucket brigade”
t-minus
i’m glad we get another autumnto pick a day to pick applesbut instead just buy themand walk by the riverand take elaborate posed photosnext to some pumpkinsand laugh we get another summerto watch the dog swimand eat ice cream sandwichesand seek respite from heatin the grocery storeduring peak tejano hoursi’m gonna wear colorful dresseswe’re gonnaContinue reading “t-minus”
closure
if nothing else i have to give thanksbecause i came out of thiswith an awareness of my greatnesswith the knowledge that love is real(and i have found it)with a reconnection to my souland my soulmateand the best damn partneri’ve ever had i have to give thanksfor learning which drugs i likei found uncrossable lineswithin myselfContinue reading “closure”
they were so alike
if you asked me whymy eyes are red and fulli’d say, i slept in my makeupwhich is true but leaves outthe end of that sentence:and i dreamed he came backhe was the same as beforei slapped him over and overhands stinging with glass splintersand when i tried to leavei had to squeeze past a powerContinue reading “they were so alike”
resume update
it’s nice to be a personon this cool morning green and goldwe have to take our daysof conflict resolutionand high executive functionand good hairand hold them closeto remind us of what we’re capable you hired me becausei anticipate the needs of the clientand apply proactive, creativeproblem-solving techniquesi specialize in seamlessmanagement of transitionand crisis prevention youContinue reading “resume update”
lachrymosal enthusiast
conventional wisdom saysno matter how much you crytears won’t wash awaythe sweetness of a good kissi’m an emotional connoiseurand crying beats kissingmost days of the weekstill: there were thingsi loved that haunt me last night a dark formclimbed into my dreamsand held me in place while i screamed for helpi woke up shaken andwondering ifContinue reading “lachrymosal enthusiast”
reverse dutch boy
the river of my desireonce seemed to flood & drownevery good thing i hadso i built a strong dam& let myself take small sipsfrom the lake that grewyear by year he took a sledgehammer& relentlessly swung &hacked giant holesthrough concrete & rebarstood firm in the rushlaughing as it soaked himhe said, there. you’re free.& thenContinue reading “reverse dutch boy”
kissing/tripping
lovely one in the darkwith the rainbow shiversglowing electric ley linesfrom fresh peachto violent violetunder your handsbetween your teeth gasping offstagefor once this is no performancebut a prayersacred unafraid offeredto the power that brought us here the softness the softnessstrikes like a lightning matchcrying crying into your open mouthbegging pleadingto taste you angelic holy divineContinue reading “kissing/tripping”
mattress dungeon 