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this lipstick tastes like lipstick: a feminist rant

the seasonal shit hit me hard this year and i had troublegetting out of bed and into the shower and dressed like a slobbecause who gives a fuck, i’m in a long term relationship with(a man, which, as my lesbian friend pointed outalready makes me a shitty feministin the collective minds of a certain brandContinue reading “this lipstick tastes like lipstick: a feminist rant”

the substance of the substance of the substance

she says no no no you don’t trust them but you can go to clubs and bend over and take it from four or five and never trust a one not to yuck a yum but whatever torsion exists in my root chakra is certainly bespoke and fuck if i don’t have to half loveContinue reading “the substance of the substance of the substance”

blank speech

well because see i have this thing with wanting i wasn’t allowed to want things when i was a kid the heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked who can know it hot damn sometimes the bible contains really great poetry i was always a psalms girl myself yeah that and ezekiel yearningContinue reading “blank speech”

murmuration

i’ll write this tomorrowwhen i’m not holding a cigwhen i’ve fallen apart againwhy is itwhen i’m togethereveryone’s scaredbut i divideyou could have so many pieces you’ve seen birdslike this personi ambroken up intohundreds thousands one & walt wasn’t specialfor containing multitudesyou fucking assholei’m sorry i didn’tmean that i’m not as explosive as you think iContinue reading “murmuration”

the fuck do you mean you haven’t seen say anything

I will not fallInto the spiked pit of self loathingIn this bar tonightI just fucking refuse Sure I crashed the carBut in my defense I’m runningOn two hours of sleepAnd a Whole Lotta Booze And I’ve got this wholePeter Gabriel thing right nowBecause I’ve got a boom boxAnd you’ve got a windowBut ne’er the twainContinue reading “the fuck do you mean you haven’t seen say anything”

but try it anyway

the truth is when i really dig deep and try to recall all his lessons were passive an unwrapped birthday toolbox with everything i’d need go on kid teach yourself, like I did what she gave me were clear instructions this is the way we bake the bread this is the way we mop theContinue reading “but try it anyway”

i am ian’s busted heart

someday someone’s gonna love you this much & you’ll find a reason to say no anyway you think someday you’ll be ready but it’s 23 all over again when you’re scared you’re screaming no no no no no it’s not a habit but love love is a mirror and we hate the sight of ourselvesContinue reading “i am ian’s busted heart”

you’ll pay for the whole seat but you’ll only need the edgelord

that fuckin voiceover guy’s all in my head again IN A WORLD WITH SO MANY IDEAS NOBODY CAN TAKE CREDIT FOR ANYTHING inspiration’s a hell of a drug and i know a lot of dealers variously melting down into shithead slag doin that osmosis thing john bunyan’d look at this pile o brain goo &Continue reading “you’ll pay for the whole seat but you’ll only need the edgelord”