truth or time or bodies or enlightenment or awareness or

my love are you still
breathing in the depths
somewhere in my spirit
i have missed our talks
under water dark as ice
just a short swim away
from the city of lights
i never got to visit

you told me if i left that day
i would never be able to return
and there were so many people
waiting to meet me down below
my love is that where i will go
when i fall asleep for the last time
is that what you meant
i didn’t want to leave

this vague distance drowns me
too many times i linger
on the thought of what you’d say
to all this mess to me as I am
i wonder if you’d be proud of me
i wonder if you are proud of me

my love i am dying of thirst
please tell me one more time
what we’re talking about
when we talk about water