if nothing else i have to give thanks
because i came out of this
with an awareness of my greatness
with the knowledge that love is real
(and i have found it)
with a reconnection to my soul
and my soulmate
and the best damn partner
i’ve ever had
i have to give thanks
for learning which drugs i like
i found uncrossable lines
within myself and knew
my stupidity won’t kill me
even at its worst
i am giving thanks for the hearts
that have become closer to mine
and for the renewed sense of beauty
when i see tall trees and blue water
thanks for simplicity, thanks for
the knowledge that i don’t have to try
so fucking hard to exist
mattress dungeon 