do you understand. do you understand. do you understand.

there is no way to stop
the process of aging
on a physical level
so any contract you may have signed
with satan or one of his dudes
simply means you’ll stop developing
& date people in their early 20s
& be vulnerable
to high school bullies

this is not a criticism
it’s only the truth i have been told
you never really feel older
just more experienced
& you’re trapped
in a mind a quarter of a century old
with a bad hip
& bad knees
& bad wings

when you try to connect
the badness shows itself
never together enough
& too many years removed
to effectively grasp the slang
wrinkles don’t help
unless there are fetishes involved
& you probably want to steer clear of those

o lord i find no solace in this
please use your omnipotence
to defend me in my upcoming court case
i will admit to fear
but i would like to age and die
instead of humiliating myself
over and over

i miss knowing
that i was wrong
in the right way