there was this
moment when we locked eyes
my arm braced
around the doe’s limp neck
and we lifted her together
to spill blood and guts
on the patio
i felt my insides shift
with hers
something changed
everything changed
i told you this before
you went back to sleep
sayin oh honey baby oh honey girl
what to do what to do except
hold you again
there is a nameless bliss
in these quiet moments
(except you sound like a freight train
but like, a cute freight train)
where we melt together
and i can almost feel your blood
pounding through you into me
there was a scent
when we cut her open
the freshness of her blood
distinctive and somehow sweet
i caught a buzz off it
and i can taste her
in everything i’ve eaten since
i figured it out: it’s life
and this morning when i woke you
i smelled it on your skin
and in your hair
you’re alive, dear heart
let’s keep it that way
mattress dungeon 