how dare you send me west
toward the mountains
installing your wistful dreams
like so much software
i may be a city girl
but i can drive hard
& i can climb
how to love someone:
learn them & outshine them
they’ll certainly be impressed
(this actually never works
but i’ve never read a map
better suited for)
expressing & navigating
the territory of total adoration
but here the terrain
outpaces me &
this cinderblock
box of comfort
cannot hold me
back oh hold me
back oh hold me
back in the olden days
facedown in the dirt
with a blow to the head i dreamed
flight & the city’s wilderness light
a tense conjugal prayer:
stars flew stars fly stars fall
i flew i fly i fall
i rose i rise i raise
flat on my back i
surfaced
i breathed i breathe
i breathe i breathe
i fled to weaker arms
i flee to strong shoulders
i’ll fly to the mountain & climb
tirelessly on bleeding feet
without outpacing
& sleep in the trees
below: your shrine
an aluminum casket
above: granite, pink quartz
& stars flying
& stars falling
& we fly
& we fall
mattress dungeon 