and then last night i found myself
in family dollar
staring blankly at bags of chips
and seeing only objects
trying to imagine eating them
like chewing wet cardboard
sour cream and onion flavor
my friend who’s been to rehab
tells me don’t give up sugar
your body needs it detox is weird
but i’ve spent entire days eating cake
and i’d rather just keep drinking
so it goes tea with honey
honeycrisp apple
minneola tangelo
with its perfect scansion
i want to know
the exact meter of minneola tangelo
in poetic feet and electric inches
but not enough to look it up
shit hurts but the numbness is worse
people drink for all kinds of reasons
to forget
to feel good
to kill the pain
pretty sure part of my benders
is that the hangover blots out
novocaine numbness
he says, sometimes i like being sad
me too buddy
maybe that’s why it’s so hard to quit
mattress dungeon 