you know what it is
to starve on a full stomach
to walk in cold rain
like you can wash the words loose
like your sore feet will write for you
& you know what it is to implode
tonight only the dirt’s visible
there are condoms & needles in my driveway
both used and i used to laugh
there’s another —
another sad symbol
tonight i just wanna kill that guy
the one across the alley
who leaves his dogs caged outside
see it’s cold & i know you know
& i’m sorry but some nights
this music just makes me
just makes me want to bleed
as melodramatically as possible
from the mouth, maybe,
from the stomach
because I can’t — won’t stop eating
hey, maybe you don’t know.
but the words are out there,
somewhere. gimme.
mattress dungeon 